I remembered this blog today. I haven’t been here in about 4 years. When I stopped blogging in 2013 I weighed 218 lbs. I had lost about 30 lbs and was going to the gym 1-2 times a day. I was happy. I was enjoying eating healthy. I was enjoying going to the gym. I felt good. I liked the way that I looked.
So what happened? I can make a list of excuses:
- I have PCOS and was having a really hard time with it.
- I didn’t have enough time to meal prep and plan or go to the gym.
- I had a stressful job and a lot going on with school and work.
- I was struggling financially.
But that’s all it is. A list of excuses. I have PCOS. So do a lot of other people. What helps PCOS? Eating healthy and exercising and losing weight. I don’t have time. That’s life. There’s never enough time. It’s all about prioritizing the time that you have. I didn’t prioritize my health. Period. I stopped tracking my food. I stopped going to the gym. And all the weight came back. Plus some.
So what all has happened in my life since my last post four years ago? A LOT! I graduated college in May of 2014 and started working for Kroger as an Assistant Store Manager in August of 2014. I lived in Memphis for four months for training, and then was placed in a store in Blytheville, AR.
Let me tell you a little bit about Blytheville. (My apologies to anyone from Blytheville who happens to stumble upon this blog!). Blytheville is a small town in Northeast Arkansas. It is right on the border of Missouri and Tennessee. Population: 18,272. It has been listed the number one most dangerous town in Arkansas multiple times. I liked working for Kroger. I hated Blytheville. Because Kroger couldn’t transfer me for at least another year, I decided to leave the company. My husband and I were considering relocating to Fayetteville, AR. Northwest AR is gorgeous, my sister lives there, and it’s just a really unique and fun town. I applied for lots of jobs in the area, and a few in some different areas just because. I accidentally came across a job posting for a restaurant manager for a sushi restaurant in St. Louis, MO. At first I mixed up the posting and thought I was applying for a position in Fayetteville, but once I realized it was in St. Louis, I decided to go ahead and finish the application because why not? I like St. Louis, and I’m probably not going to get a call anyway, right? Wrong. I got a call to set up an interview almost immediately and so I took a plunge and went! It went well and they set up a follow up interview the next week. I drove back and was offered the job a couple of days later. So James and I talked it over and decided to go for it. We moved to St. Louis in August of 2016. He can do freelance work from home and there are a lot of job opportunities in his profession in St. Louis. So we moved to St. Louis. We rented a loft apartment in downtown St. Louis (about 5 minutes from the Arch). I started working at a sushi restaurant in Ballpark Village at Busch Stadium.
Moving to St. Louis is definitely the best decision we ever made. I love living in a city. I love having the Arch and river as my backyard. I love being able to walk everywhere. I love all of the local restaurants. However, the food definitely didn’t help with the weight!
In July of 2017 I was contacted by a recruiter for a national chain restaurant. After going to an interview, they offered me a position as a restaurant manager for a significant higher salary ($15,000 a year higher…). So I accepted and started working for them in August of this year. Still in St. Louis, but now I have about a half hour commute (if there isn’t any traffic) instead of walking to work. So far I love it, but again, not good for the weight! They are known for their desserts and portion sizes!!
In September of this year I decided that I had to make a change. I’m tired of feeling bad all the time. I’m tired of not feeling good about my appearance. I’m tired of not being able to do the things I love (ride rollercoasters, hike, walk around town, etc) without limitations due to my weight. My official starting weight this time around is 263.8, but I’ve seen the scale as high as 269. This is absolutely the most I’ve ever weighed in my entire life.
I have a busy life. I work 55 hours a week (weird hours). My husband works different hours than me. I know that I couldn’t just jump into meal prep and planning and be successful. So after researching a lot of options and alternatives, I decided to give Nutrisystem a shot. I know that Nutrisystem is a controversial choice, and I will make a separate post about it and why I decided to go in this direction. So far I have lost about 10 pounds. I have also restarted a Couch to 5K program. (I use an app called Get Running). I am about to start Week 4. I’m focusing this time around on really improving myself personally. I want this time to be the last time. I want to hit my goal weight and maintain it. I want to be healthy and fit and normal. I don’t want to be plus size anymore.